My Heart Conditioner

There was raining since early morning, I was in my warm house, shaded from cold. If it continued, I would late to go to school. I had a chemical test today. I was not afraid if I was late or not, but I was afraid if I couldn't get a paper test  today. I am Roman, seventeen years old. They said I was spoiled boy. Absolutely not, they were wrong.

I was not a spoiled boy. I wasn't wearing the thick glass on my face, or carrying box of food to the school, and I wasn't depend to anyone. I like sport, I like football, but I didn't understand
 Why did they think that I was a spoiled boy. I just never went to school with a bus or something, I was always with my mother,  because we were have the same direction when she went to her office. Was that wrong?

My mother was sick, she was in the hospital now. She was too tired with her job, and need at least three days to rest . It meant, no one who took me to the school. I would go to school alone, They would never call me spoiled boy. It was Impossible to walk. I would go by bus, it was the first time. I sat at the chair back of the bus, it was full bus, but I would rather sit at back. There was very hot, but it was not too bad, show must go on.

The rain had stopped, traffic jam, and getting hotter, arid city. Among discomfort, where the stuffy air, the clamor, shouting everywhere, I felt so cool suddenly. It was a girl. No, a sweet girl, I saw the girl in the middle of the bus sitting two chair next to me. It was the first time I went to the school by bus, and the first time I saw a beautiful girl like her. She was wearing the same uniform like me, I thought she was a student too. I didn't know why, whenever I saw her, I felt so cool. Like the Air Conditioner cooled the room. She was cooling my heart.  Oh my, who had sent me an angel?

I couldn't take my eyes from her. She smiled, described her smooth black hair. Turning her face to the edge, made me saw her beautiful face directly. If there was any arrow, I would take one and send my curiosity. And I would throw it away on her heart. Five minutes, and my school it just one mile to go. And I still looking at her. The time turned so fast, I had left the bus and go to my class. If I didn't have a test today, I would follow her wherever she went. I just hoping to not to write her face on my test paper, my heart conditioner .

Two days since I went to school by bus yesterday, I hope I would meet her again, ask her name and her school, or everything about her. I sat on the back, and waiting. Looking the chair where she sat yesterday, although it was not the same bus. The bus was going, and I didn't see her anywhere. Her chair had been sat by a fat man, it was disappointing me very much.

Third days, I didn't want disappoint myself anymore. I was not hoping would meet with her again. Maybe she just was a mirage in the morning. As usual, I sat at the the back, and waiting for bus to stop at my school. I saw her chair still empty till the bus going. The bus stopped along side a road, the unknown passenger came in, and sat beside me.

A girl said “Would you mind if I sit here?”
"Yes, please" I Answered

I was surprised, I couldn't say anything. I just nodded my head to allow her quest.

“Oh my god, is this a dream?” I said accidentally

“Eh? what was wrong?” She asked

“Emmm...No, I just...My name is Roman, may I know your beautiful name?" As I tried to refine the situation by asking her a question, maybe unimportant question.

“Yes, but my name ain't that beautiful. I’m Lisa, nice to meet you” she smiled to me. No, I thought she treated me with her smile.

Then we talked a lot, we already knew a lot each other just in few minutes, I guessed.  Her school not far from my school, as well with her home too, actually I didn't know her location as well as I nodded to her, She driving me mad, mom. But I knew that place, maybe someday I would go to her house. She looked so different since I saw her a few days ago. She was wearing jacket now, just like she wasn't okay that day. She said she wore a jacket to make her feel warm. My heart  couldn't stop beating when I’m with her, and it couldn't stop bleeding when she’s gone. Hey, I just knew her for a couple of days.
The bus had stopped around my school, I must go. We split here, she continued her trip. My heart would’t stop thinking about her. The time felt so fast when I was with her, but I was happy to meet her again.

Three day past, my mother had back home, she couldn't not go to work as usual. I told her that I would not going school with her, I wanted to go by bus. It was not because of my friend mocking at me. but I wanted to meet Lisa again, my heart conditioner. I kissed my mother then I went to school with bus. We had made a date that we would meet at this bus stop, then I saw her and we went to school together. We were talking, joking, and, laughing, absolutely we felt match each other. We had same ideas about what all we like, although we only knew each other in a few days. I had a plan to invite her to my house, and I would introduce her to my mother. She agreed and promised, but not in the near of time.

As time still running, our relationship are getting closer. I told my mother about her,and she wanted to know her closer.  My mother reminded me, she said that we could feel the happiness and felt sadness just in the flash of eyes. I hope it was not the initial of bad moment. Today I couldn't see her at all, once again I was disappointed about her. When I wanted to introduce her to my mother, she was not here.

A week without her, it looked like a year without  drinking, I couldn't find oasis. I was the sun without a moon.  My life so empty, in my way to school, no more laughing, no more her smile, her face. She was the only one who made me went to school by bus, it was a big deal. The day without her it was so hard for me. Her chair, has been replaced by the another unknown girl, the other beautiful girl, but not beautiful as Lisa. Five days, I saw on the girl who always sat where Lisa did, she looked jumpy, looked like searching for someone or something.

                The sun had rising up, dazzle my eyes. I was lazy to go to school. I had tried to forget Lisa, actually I couldn’t. She just my new friend, but why so hard to forget her out of my brain, from my heart. I really missed her. I got into bus, and sat at the center of the bus because back chairs was already full. Suddenly a girl came to me.

                She said “I’m sorry, this is my chair”

                “O..oh ...I..I’m sorry, let me move” I answered.

                But when saw on her face, I was surprised with the one who I was waiting for. It’s lisa. There was no reason to not to hug her. She asked what was wrong with me, but I still on my hugged her.

                “I’m sorry, maybe you hugged the wrong person” she looked at my eyes

                “Lisa, where have you been? I’ve been searching for you. why didn’t you come to school

Yesterday? Were you sick? What happen with your eyes? Were you crying?” I asked her aggressively

                “You Roman, right? I’m not Lisa, I’m her twin sister, Lina”

                “Oh I’m sorry, I think you are Lisa” I felt embarrassed, I was lucky because no one was looking at us.

                “So where is Lisa? Is she sick? I haven’ see her for a few days”

                “ She died about two months ago, the cancer couldn’t be healed anymore. Didn't you know?” She started crying.

                “ Are you joking? She was with me a few days ago, you said she died two months ago. Impossible. What a joke are you talking about?” I just trembling on the hot day.

                “You are lying, how can you met the one if she died”

                “I swear, but I hadn’t seen her for a few days, I’m afraid if something happens to her”

                “She buried, I didn’t know who you have seen. I’d never seen you before”

                She just crying. I could’t believe what that had happened, I didn’t know that I should believe what that she told to me or not. I didn’t know that I scare or confuse. Now everybody is looking at us

                “You know, before she died she said to give this letter to you after she buried for forty days.”

Then we got off the bus, My school was passed away, I didn’t know where I am. She explained that what has happened but I still don’t understand, and gave a letter to me, then she gone through my eyes.

               

Dear roman

             

                 I’m sorry, maybe when you read this letter, I was not here anymore. I just wanna say that I’m very grateful to meet you. You made my life like a new again. You're a new spirit in my life, supported me to get over from this damn illness. Thank you roman, maybe we will meet again in another chances, and I promise to come to your house, meet with your mother next time.

        

            Lisa.

                Two weeks that I couldn't stop thinking about this. I didn’t believe this at all. Who was Lisa? I mean who was with me? Laughing, joking, and beside me whenever I went to the school?? I didn’t told my mother or someone about it. I didn’t want to let they think that I crazy. But, I knew I should forgot this all to reach my future, my normal life. I wasted my time to think about her and let the time waste me. Maybe she was my only one love, the one who gave me something that I didn’t get it before, love. She was all I ever love, and my eternal memories.

           Dear Lisa

         

              Hello, long time no see you beautiful. How are you there? Are you thinking of me?I miss you so much here, girl. Why did you leave me so fast? There was nothing can compare in this world to you. Your hazel, your hair and your smile, is so amazing. You know, You don’t need to reply this letter. Because I will be there beside you when you had read this letter...

        Roman